June 1, 2020

I’ve misplaced my virginity to a man who doesn’t even know my title and I’m ashamed

DEAR DEIDRE: I AM in an entire new world and have misplaced my virginity to a man who most likely doesn’t even know what my title is. After going to an all-girl college, I’m 18 and in my first yr at college.

There’s a lot informal banter right here about intercourse and at first I used to be fairly shocked by it. The opposite night time, I used to be in a pub with a crowd of fellow college students. I began throwing again the drinks and ended up fully out of it.

I’m so upset in myself
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A man began chatting me up.

He was a number of years older than me however I used to be in a what-the-hell type of temper and instructed my mates to go on with out me, saying I’d catch them up.

I used to be getting wobbly and mentioned I needed some contemporary air.

This man mentioned I might come and sit in his van outdoors. The following factor I keep in mind, we had been mendacity down behind his van.

I didn’t inform him to cease however I did inform him I used to be a virgin.

He had intercourse with me anyway and was extraordinarily tough about it.

Afterwards, I requested if I’d see him the following day.

He mentioned: “No means.” I began crying and he mentioned having intercourse was my selection, which was true but it surely was horrible.

I really feel like I’ve misplaced one thing about myself since having intercourse
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I really feel like I’ve misplaced one thing about myself.

I’m not naive sufficient to suppose the primary time is at all times particular but it surely shouldn’t have been so dangerous.

Regardless that I used to be so drunk, I do keep in mind insisting he wore a condom and I took the morning-after capsule, so I don’t have to fret about being pregnant.

However I used to be at all times the smart woman who didn’t make errors and now I can by no means get the previous me again.

I maintain considering persons are taking a look at me and judging me.

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DEIDRE SAYS: Please cease beating your­self up.

All of us make errors and life is a studying curve.

One of the best ways to deal with errors is to ensure we by no means do the identical factor once more.

Cease worrying about what different individuals suppose.

No person will know except you inform them.

Even when mates who had been there that night time guess, no actual mates will probably be judging you.

Virginity isn’t a commodity.

You could have had one dangerous expertise of intercourse.

It received’t in any means reduce the particular emotions while you first have intercourse with somebody you actually look after and who cares for you.

Be taught from this. It occurred while you had been consuming, so keep on with a choice any more to solely drink sparsely.

Alternate each alcoholic drink with a protracted comfortable one.

Effectively completed for ensuring it wasn’t unprotected intercourse – however it might be sensible to get a sexual-health test simply to make sure.

If it might assist to dump in confidence, contact The Combine, which helps under-25s with any drawback (themix.org.uk, 0808 808 4994).

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